We feel as if we’re going to go crazy without this person. Our person, our best friend, our lover who knows us the best is gone, and everything is different. The way I acted, you would think someone was dying, but in fact those who have attachment issues feel like this when someone leaves us-it feels as if someone has died. I was angry, I tried to negotiate, I cried, I panicked-all the phases of grief. How’s that for a stab at your insecurities? This person I thought I was going to marry was sitting next to me on the couch telling me he didn’t want to be with me.
I thought my heart could explode from feeling so happy.Īfter some time, the love of my life didn’t want to be in our relationship anymore for various reasons. He’d call me his “future fiancé” and leave me the sweetest love notes. I finally had my love who also turned out to be my best friend. I still had some demons to work through from my previous relationship, and he was nothing but patient with me through it. We were so alike sometimes, it was scary! I felt like the luckiest girl in the world. He made me feel safe, loved, and so happy.
I fell in love unexpectedly, but when is it ever expected? I had just gotten through an awful breakup and this perfect man for me fell from the heavens. I can’t tell you how many times I’ve heard (and heard myself say), “I just want to skip this part and fast forward to when I feel better.” The feeling that so many of us would pay big (BIG) money to skip through. “And when I thought ‘I can’t go on,’ the universe expanded, mother earth hummed and the moon whispered, ‘Yes, you can’.” ~Wicked Words
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